Oregon Mar 12th 2013!
I back to U.S like 3 weeks now, but still I feel not really relax at all. Plus i got more stresses since my first day back to work. And other crazy thing about my life style, it's just like everything screw up. Hmmmmm! How can I drop the heavy life down from my shoulder. I really cant take it no more!
Work: Back to work, 3 Emergency meeting needed to have with Head Quarter by live have to be done. Then RTO plan keep changing drive me crazy to explan and calm all the employees down while they mad. Hey guy, I'm in the same page at you, not happy for what they kêp changing and anouncing. I would like to quit this job if I can find another job ỏ win lottery. But don't worry, remember what I told you all since I came to shift? I will fight for the good of our Back Night team. So I will keep my promise, whatever I get, you all will get the same. But now, please don't put too much pressure on mẹ I'm human like you guy, not a rock or somthing different. Gosh, please wait for the final annoument.
Life living: After I got back from vietnam, alot of rumour that I heard about me. Bad, good, support, and against me like keep give me headache. Why are those people so nosy? Whatever I have now are what I was choose them. No matter what, those thing not affect to you at all. So please leave me alone so I can dealt with what will come in my life. Last week I was so freak out when they anounce that either I accept the PSU stock, but cant invest until 2023 or either cut off 5% of my paycheck. I was like: What? F*** no! Neither Stock nor 5% I wont follow ịt take it back. If you want me to do RTO I will do it so. but stock or 5% forget it. My manager was: you have no Choice! I replied: I have my other choice, quit the job! and just walk away. Manager came to me 2hrs later to cool down me off the thing happen earlier. She was told me that she will try to make everything not going to happen. I know it's easy, we had like 50 bell ring since I got back already. Now I will wait and see if I have to ué my last choice or not.
To some one I loved: Sorry for what happen during the trip. But remember, you the one make this happen first! I been try to brought up you attention by not stay home, hang out over night. even I do care about you and your family while I when to my dad home town. But, what I got back is more hurt! I told myself that I have to clear you out of my mind, but cant remember how many time I had tried. it wasn't work for me at all. And everytime like that my hreart 1 again it started worse. Last week after I talked with you. I been down for whole day. Have you ever think about that? I still care alots. I wanna talk with you face by face, in a place with have nothing bother me. I know I have not for long, I don't want 1 day I will regret for what I have kept in silent. I had lost everything just for you. but like my mom, friends said: I got nothing back from you accept hurt! You know how did I feel when you grandma ask me why we not had kid yet? I was want to jump out off the window right away. I don't know what to tell her at all. And everyone in your family was thinking that me as solitary confinement with hard labour. I was ok, I took that, just for you and because of you. All I want is 1 day, my life will be Peace in Rest. but don't know will it happen or not.
Lỳ: Sorry since I got back have not much time to post up much thing here. but don't worry babe, when I catch up everything i was behind, I will get back to vinagame and doing my job! hehehehe!
Ái Tỉnh: Babe sorry too, I was have to many thing happen arround me, I have no time to poking you at all. But don't mad at me please. Because you know I need you and Lỳ to poking for my life little bit relax. Happy to have freinds like you and Lỳ! lolz. By the way remember to take rest don't take to much works. You not strong like you think babe.
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